Wednesday, August 31, 2011

A flash in the dark


A flash in the dark

 There is a reason why it’s called the witching hour. There is a reason why your hair will stand on the back of you neck. 

Close your eyes baby, and hold my hand, because I’m about to scare you.

I was young and wild, the world had opened up for me and I was not afraid of anything.  There wasn’t a darkness that I could not light up.  Every friend I held dear was just like a brother, some could have been my twin. 

Great ideas always seem to happen under the influence.  The beer bottles melted by a raging fire, and the best of friends forged a circle of trust. 

“There is a house; an old house in the town I grew up in, it’s falling apart.  There are things in there that you cannot see, that you cannot fight.”

“Shut the fuck up with that shit”

“I think we should check it out, bring a camera and take a picture of all us in a haunted house”

“Sounds like fun to me”

“Let’s go right now, what are we waiting for?”

The dare was laid down; a decision had to be made.  Man hood had to be proven at every opportunity.

Two hours of driving down a long lonely road, that winded like a snake that bit us every chance it got. 

Thirty minutes down a dirt road that had not been used in years, and the old truck bounced over the ruts and bumps. 

I don’t know who saw it first, but in the distance upon a small hill the old house stood crooked as if the moonlight was the only thing that held it up.  A light tingle of fear enters my fingers knifing its way up my arm, making the hair stand on end.

We parked, jumped out of the old truck, and banded together like warriors about to take siege to a castle. 

The steps creaked like the knees of an old man.  The wood was rotted and buckled under my weight.  The door had rotted off its hinges, and had fallen sideways to block our entrance.  It was kicked and fell inwards with a crash, and the years of dust flew into the air.

Inside the house is a fuzzy memory.  Every step was light, and someone else was inside with us, maybe something else was there as well.   I could feel it, that sense of being watched, that terrible feeling of something bad about to happen, but to macho to say something, or do anything about it.

The tension was building; I heard it in the mouse voices of my friends.  None of us wanted to be there any longer.

“Let’s just take the picture and get out of here”

The best idea we had yet.  We gathered in the kitchen, and the camera was placed on a counter. We gathered around and I tried to smile for the picture, but my mouth would not form, my lips were frozen in place.

I was cold, shivering in the darkness. Huddled with my friends and wanting to just run from this horrible place as fast as I could. 

The bright flash made me cringe; it blinded me for just a second.  My sight returned quickly, quicker then that of my friends. Being color blind does have its advantages.  At the moment my eyes adjusted quickly when a friend took a step, he couldn’t see at all, and he screamed as his leg fell threw the old wooden floor.  I reached for him, but it was too late, and the blood from his leg was all over my hands.

I helped him up and one of the others helped him out of the house.  The camera still stood on the counter, and I walked over to get it.  It flashed and blinded me, I heard a crash, felt the wood begin to shutter beneath me. I had lost all sense of direction.  I blinked hard trying to get my vision back.  The air was thicker, and I could taste the dirt in mouth as I began to choke on it.

I could see in a blur through the darkness, the light danced off objects I was getting dizzy, and felt like puking.  With a deep breath I regained my bearings and reached for the camera, it flashed again as I grabbed it.  At that moment I felt something pull on my jacket hard and I resisted as fear took me. 

“Come on man, we’re leaving”

The voice was soothing, but it wasn’t one I recognized.  I felt a large hand take a hold of mine.  It led me slowly to the front door and as the moon light hit my face I was able to see again. 

I could see my friends over by the truck ripping up a shirt to wrap up a bloody leg.

I looked back and saw no one inside the house.  I do not know who guided me out; I don’t think I will ever know.

But, I do have a picture.

Sensibility


Sensibility


I wish to say,
What in words,
I could never express.

A desire in such despair
What hope could bring,
Into a fire that burns hot.

The salty sweat of passion,
Such a beautiful betrayal
That eyes can only glimpse

A bitter night
And the sound of cool water
A thirst that cannot be calmed

Such pretty accents
Life that can live
And love that can grow

The beginning and trials
All that hope to end
Into a new moment

Forgiveness of pain
And thoughts of doubt
Hearts filled with wonder

That bring warmth into the light
When all control is swept aside
And blood boils at a touch

A feverish dream that wishes
To stay fast asleep
Echoes onto empty halls

As she breathes still

You Get Caught

You get caught
 

I know a night won’t change a thing
A never ending past and a glimpse of life
Just twisting as it goes
Around at a turned up nose
 

The sunlight hangs at the mercy of clouds
While the moon is a curtain of doubt
And I just don’t believe
You know what you’re talking about
 

Under line the moment that you get caught
Never mind that everyone saw you lost
Even if its on the tip of my tongue
I’ll probably just keep my big mouth shut

Don’t go chasing
All of the extremes
Don’t go chasing
And leave everything

The balance as you see is at risk
A smile and a thought of being brisk
Leaving it up to me
You’re making a big mistake

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

The Deep


The Deep



I am anxious
Waiting for this world to turn
1000 times again and over
Into this lazy morning
 

Come and take me
And I will spill open
Still I'm crazy
Skinned and spoken.
 

The time for forever is here
And left behind the broken fears
I spent my life wondering
It is deep here and it is clear.

I have chosen
This life, this sweetness
The empty anger gone
Now I can see the pieces.

Everywhere I could hide
Anywhere I could run.
Displace and conceal.
Now I stand my ground.

Ride With the Devil

Ride With the Devil


Did you think of the blood?
Or the dirt on your hands
Heaven won’t wait
But hell accepts all
It’s what they call life

The night can surround
And blanket the cold
You can shake bitter in the chill
Hold on tight to the love
Find the warmth in her heart
It’s not right or wrong, it just is

This ghost she awaits you
It may not be as real
But she is there just the same
It could be just hate
But it feels more like pain

You can try to find some peace
We should all have a little
But all that is, is hope
That what cannot come back?
Still may find a home.

The Burn in the Dark

The Burn in the Dark

The distance between
You and me
Is the safety I keep?
It’s the bruise
That I hide
When I bend
In the light

The further I become
Always you
The burn in the dark
Always you
The secret I hold
Always you

As far as I can see
You and me
Is the pain that I keep?
Deep inside
The bleeding heart
That escapes
The cold rain
When lighting strikes

You are closer when I’m alone
You’re here and I can feel it
But even if you screamed
I could not hear it.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

My Blood

This is my blood
Flowing on these dirty rocks
This is my face
Covered in her tears
These are the cracks
Falling apart from the years 

Take me down these miles
Take them from me
Hide these memories
These are my needs
Through everyday
Pounding my life
The blue she takes away 

I will lay open
Her face reflected in my eyes
I watch the stems
Of the crystal collide
These are seams
That is ripped from my sides

Monday, August 1, 2011

Waves crushed the black sky

I don't remember wanting anything more
And the distance is the only thing long term
I have crawled for days to get to you
Only to find that you’re no longer there

I wanted so badly
To take these dreams as far as they can go
But what I needed,
And what you feared the most
Have only ended a beautiful possibility

It was always there in the anticipation
Which becomes an ache that was dreaded
Then I became alienated
And you don't know how to feel free

I couldn't help but want to rely
So much was depending on air
Waves crushed the black sky
And I was left standing there

The point has been reached where I cared
But no longer am I concerned
Taking it or leaving it, no longer matters
It’s the battle to regain the thought

A Change

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